Since Blizzard saw it fit to give me a Mists of Pandaria Beta invite instead of my dream-beta Diablo III, I had to wait with the rabble to return to better times in PC-gaming. About Mists I can only say "Crouching Anime, Hidden Gameplay" and leave it at that. This Bloggietythingmaboob is about Diablo III.
My love for the Diablo franchise stems back all the way from the very first Diablo, a game that fitted on a CD-ROM, allowed for limitless spawns on friends' computers and packed so much gameplay that to this day, it is still played. Diablo II, it's successor came on three CD-ROMs and the friendly unlimited spawns was gone. It was later expanded with "Lords of Destruction", adding new classes and few extra end-bosses.
The core of the game, fast and addictive gameplay, was not really changed between the two games. Your primary attack is on the left mousebutton and your super-attack is the right one. Your toon follows either mouseclicks on the playfield or it trails your mouse. The level of control that this system allows for is faster than a gamepad and infinitely better than WSAD.
In the first two games, you were able to allocate stat-points like in traditional RPGs and they had skill-trees with skills that could only be reached with care and planning. Not so in Diablo III. Statpoints are allocated for you and you unlock skills as you level and you get to decide whether you use them or not. For my purist's taste, Diablo has stopped being a psuedo-RPG (It never was a true RPG to start with) and it is now a pure action game with a deeper story to it than is found in most other action games.
(First off where can I delete my old blogs?)

This my persona for my new playthrough of Fallout NV Ultimate. I play with Reality Rules, a system that tries to make life in the Post-Nuclear Nevada Desert as realistic as possible. I have plugged in a real-weather mod, a real time mod and a Primary Needs Controller. I also select answers that are in-line with roleplaying this character as much as possible, instead of going with answers that are the most advantageous.

The weather system in full effect, a thunderstorm is sweeping through Goodsprings reducing visibillity to almost zero.

Smoking is also a reality-mod. After each fight I roll a die, on 6 my character has to light a smoke. Smoking is handled just like alcohol or chems and has a chance of addiction. The system actually uses the cigarettes that can be found in game. It breaks cartons down into packets and packets into cigarettes. Once your character gets addicted to tabacco, the infliction is rather severe and you'll find your toon smoking at a rate of one cigarette per 10 minutes to keep the negative effects in check. I roll six quite a lot, and so far I have been lucky. But each time I win a battle and roll the dice I get more apprehensive, as addiction can now hit my toon any time.
More pictures on my facebook-page, where I keep a picture bog with more pictures. Also Reality Rules Fallout 3 and Skyrim pictures are there.
I have been giving this a lot of thought. I'm probably the biggest RPG-nerd you can envision. RPG's give me something most other games don't, a story, a system and several ways to handle both. The list of RPG's I have played is long and illustrious, but the the RPG's I have completed is considerably shorter with most of the DNF's happening in the last 10 years, with the latest most prominent disasters of all time, the total letdown that Skyrim was, (There I said it.), and the "I have no clue what I want to be so I'm trying to be it all" Kingdoms of Amalur as trumps.
One of the first things that come to mind is that SP-RPG's seem to think they must follow the flow of MMORPG's. Crafting, gathering and going out of your way for some silly ingredient you only need for one weapon that is obsolete the moment you craft it, because shortly thereafter you get a drop that trumps your hard work. Crafting and gathering work in MMO's because you're providing a service to other players and if your shrewd about it, you can get them to overpay you about 20 times the intrensic worth of an item or ingedient. This mechanic is not present in SP-RPG's. There it is just an empty activity designed to stall your progress. In Skyrim, if it had been a mini-game that would become easier as you gain skill, then it would make sense in a way. But your skill only opens up better versions of stuff you won't use. And I won't even get into the pointlessness of crafting and gathering in Kingdoms, because that isn't even skillbased... Tip: Go feablades and forget about everything. Your I-win weapons will see you through and for the rest, common thievery is laughably easy.
Picking locks: No more please. Just stop it. It was awesome in Oblivion, fun in Fallout 3, ho-hum in New Vegas, dreary in Skyrim and downright stupid in Kingdoms. Just return to the skill-check diceroll and be done with it. Am I playing a RPG or a frigging catburglar simulator? Since when does high-fantasy equal a life of petty crime? It's not even functional anymore. There you are, toting a big ass Battlehammer of Buttrape that pwns all, but you whip out your lockpicks to open a rickety wooden door? Get real. Or you have a military 12gauge crowdpleaser and you do the same, without just blasting the lock out of the door? Get real again, and stop placing locks on things that don't deserve them: the rickety wooden door, the weathered chest that has been exposed to the elements for years, an average locker, a goddam frigging window with broken glass in it... Just stop it. A functional use of your lockpicks would be if your ingame loveinterest was abducted, you rescue her and upon the moment of rewardsex it is revieled that the evil boss you rescued her from stuck her in a chastitybelt. You can't very well use your battlehammer or shottie on that lock...
Talking to everyone. Stop that. Really. If it comes to the point where you have to talk to children to be put on questlines or to just some face in the crowd for the same thing then the point of playing a RPG has been overshot. Nice point in case, the first hold you go to in Skyrim. There's not a single person there who can chance his or her underwear without sending you away om something inane. In early RPG's you did the same thing, but you knew that the old lady near the appletree would just mutter something about young folk running around like headless chickens. She wouldn't give you quest that will turn out to give you a deeper understanding of the peril the village is in. Like never. Maybe the shopkeep would ask you to clear out some vermin in his warehouse (the infamous early Squaresoft sidequests), but for the MQs you went to the people that mattered. In the early RPG's you talked to the extras for a cute laugh and basically you only did that in the first village. After that, you stuck to the headliners. Do that now and you lose out on bits and pieces that may, and lately often will, come back to bite you in the ass. Not cool. Consider this, you're dressed to your crown in plate armor and carry enough pointy cuttlery to scare the Mongol Hordes into surrender.., are you really waisting a week in a backwater to mingle with the locals?
Morality... I cringe now when devs flaunt their awesome new morality-system for their new game. New Vegas was the breaking point for me. Talk to face X and be cut out of a quarter of the game? Really? And after nuking a village in Fallout 3, or letting Anders live in Dragon Age II only because my protagonist is in a puppylove relationship with him, 3 points of evil for breaking a lock on a chest belonging to a nun doesn't really phase me anymore in other RPG's. And at the heart of it, the choices are between black and white, all or nothing, with results that in the grand scheme of things don't mean much. Even though I don't consider Bioware to be a worthwhile studio anymore, there was a time when they excelled at it. Knights of the Old Republic still stands as the one RPG that got it right. Though if I have to go absolutely purist here, my ultimate vote goes to Planescape;Torment because all your choices there amounted to zilch just to prove a point. Bioware didn't call it "Torment" because it sounded so cool at the time! XD
I feel that the sandbox idea for RPG's has ran its course. In TES it made sense right up to but not including Skyrim. Because in older TES', you were dropped off somewhere and whatever you wanted to do next was up to you and you'd better get ready to live with the consequences. In Skyrim, you become Dragonborn and are trusted into a series of events you can't turn away from because you are the frigging Dragonborn. In all the other TES', you're just you with a penchant for killing stuff that may, or not may, further the story. In Fallout 3, you can just take off and your father will happily sit in his virtual reality chair being a virtual dog for all eternity. In New Vegas you're just put on a large map but the quests have you going forward in a manner that reeks of linearity. I admire the way it all fits together in New Vegas, but the incentive to go away from the questlines and explore is just not there. Kingdoms of Amalur has it wrong from the start. An open world is not a collection of interconnecting mazes or one-way streets and freedom to be what you want is moot when your choices are made pointless by the inclusion of a set of weapons that make you invincible regardless of class. (Faeblades) What's the point?
I have said that Bethesda might well have ruined RPG's for years to come with Skyrim, but I can't stand by that anymore. Skyrim was just pretty, but it ultimately didn't deliver beyond that. It joined the ranks of RPG's that take forever to finish and offer a bossfight that is just rediculous. Alduin dies in seconds. The saving grace is that you actually have to fight him, otherwise Skyrim would be on par with Fable II. Kingdoms is just ugly as hell, the story is run of the mill and the flaunted lore is Tolkien filtered through a big mazed net but the fighting system was great till my toon found a pair of faeblades. That totally took any difficulty away. Yes, I can of course not use the faeblades, but isn't that self-defeating the point of playing a RPG? You start as a nobody and you train up and get better gear. But at no point should gear give you the upperhand. Kingdoms of Amalur is unbalanced and as the fighting is actually what makes Kingdoms worth playing, I think that's a pretty big deal.
All of this, I realise, is because RPGs have become mainstream. ME2 is a good example of bending knee to the mainstream and ME3 is even blatantly, "hey, this franchise was never really a RPG, we wanted it to be a multiplayer shooter from the start, but we lacked the technology to do it". (Actual Bioware excuse, in one of their developer diaries). I was already raising an eyebrow when the emphasis was put on coloring your armor instead of tinkering with your stats in ME2. Years ago, when people smirked when you said you played Bladur's Gate, RPGs were hard. And not necessarily in the battle-system, but mostly in the stats and your understanding of them. They were hard and rewarding. And that's something modern RPG's definately are not.
How's that for awesome? I want to build my own gameworld in the Sims 3, but the way Steam hides your games from view and alters their Register entries makes it impossible to export to and import from the base-install. It also makes it impossible to apply 3rd party mods and so on (if you're so inclined).
If you have EA games that you hate being delivered through Steam for some reason (legit or illegit, don't care what you do with your games), uninstall them using the Steam function and hook up to Origin and take the time to set a basic profile. Make sure that you have the keys, or that you have registered your games on an earlier EA-account. (Make sure you log on to Origin with the account associated to that game. Games with a million expansions (The Sims) should all have been registered on one and the same account.)
Go to your profile and select library. Origin will check if the games you have registered are on the HDD. If they're not, you'll get a nice download link to each an all of your previously known to be Steam editions of your EA games. You can now redownload them. Origin places the games in their original paths, with their Original Register keys intact.
You should check if your game is available for digital download before deleting it from your Steam installs, however. Both services are equally fast when streaming your download, but you can save yourself some wasted hours, possibly, by checking first.
So there you have it. Considering the fact that Steam and Origin aren't friends and Origin's support to Steam is like "drop dead, mofo-steamer asshole!" it might be a good idea to migrate your EA-Steam games to Origin.
As you read this, I just tumbled out of bed, finally rid of a pounding headache, with a 7 worth of pain physically. I have not eaten since yesterday evening and I'm not hungry at all. AT this point, I can't even make brunch, if I would I would have to call it "blinner" (Breakfast, Lunch and dINNER rolled into one), because that's how late it is. This is stupidity of course, so I'm going to do the sensible thing and eat something very light and take in a lot of fluids to go with morning meds. Skip lunch meds (1 Diclofenac, 2 Paracetamol) and have dinner around seven. Then I'm moving light's out to midnight and go to bed with an eye to reboot the schedule tomorrow.
I had a nightmare where I was Blood Elf actually leading the Alliance against the Horde, in a post apocalyptic version of Stormwind. At least, this is what I remember of it. I hate to admit that I also was a female Blood Elf, because of the fraudian defects that might imply, LOL! At least I wasn't Forsaken! At any rate, when I woke up I was glad I wasn't dreaming anymore, but I can't explain why. Like dreams, nightmares fade as quick, though I rather return to my recurring dream then to this: night after night of disjointled dreaming of which I only remember fragments that make no sense and as the day progresses I can't recall any of it anymore which is definately for the better.
Yesterday I started a laundrycycle which is done now, of course, and since it is nice and sunny out, I'm gonna hang the laundry to dry outside. I love the smell and feel of nature dried clothes. No way a dryer can ever come close!
Yes, I missed breakfast again. At seven AM with the alarmclock I was totally not ready to be up and about. Though I have to report no dizzyness or anxiety now, when I woke and got out to silence the alarm, I was a zombie and sporting a pounding head-ache. Now I'm trying to find my bearings and am starting on brunch once more (I bake my bread fresh).
===Gul===
Yes, waking up (the fail of it) yesterday and today can be contributed to Amitriptyline, which was prescribed to help me sleep sooner and more deep. Disorientation, nausia and lightheadedness are attributed to Pantoprazol, which is prescribed to me because of the amount of medication I have. It reduces stomach-acid, but can really rear it's ugly side-effect head. General unease and lack of will to do anything is because of Diclofenac. Fresenius is the dehydration monster and Butrans only has a physical effect on the day it is administered, slight vertigo, dry mouth and sometimes spells of a swimming vision.
I'm very prone to experience side-effects, really. The first time I had that was with Oxycontin. That was really nightmarish. But I feel better today, so I'm still writing yesterday off as a shock to the system. I have been a "NO MEDS" person since forever. As an indonesian, I know many recipes for dishes that I can prepare to use as remedy for common ailments, but against this I have no answer, and neither does the doctors. The irony of it strikes me!
===WoW===

Hakima the Draenei Mage dances on the boat to Stormwind as a slew of her auctions sold at recordspeed. I have never before played a mage and to help me with it I downloaded Mage Nuggets. It shows cooldowns and timers on spells in handy icons on screen. If you arrange them smartly in the lower middle of your screen, you don't have to look everywhere else. This is handy because of the fact that your toon is always in the middle of the screen. I finished Azure Myst yesterday, so I'll be questing in Blood Myst today.
I'm in hell. I have no clue what went wrong here. I woke at six and was in a bad place so I tumbled (literally) back in bed and had nightmares. Now I'm preparing lunch and I'm in a lot of pain. What I'm going to do is treat lunch as a brunch, adding 1 Pantoprazol and 30ML of Fresenius to 1 diclofenac and 2 paracetamol. So that today I only skip one Diclofenac. The worst thing one can do is doubledosing out of panic.
I wonder what causes this distress. I'm disoriented, confused, nervous and in pain. Now more than ever it seems important to me to stick to my schedule. I have this desire to run away from something, but I don't know what it is I should run away from. Crazy shit. Also, reporting a pounding headache.
So:
===Caduceus===
We're establishing a baseline with this mix. After four weeks I have an evaluation, but if the current mix does nothing in the way of relief I can call in early. Today would be a good example to call in early, but I'm also aware of this being the first time in decades that I'm on potent medication. Weird things are expected. If in the run of the coming week this persists I'm calling it in and ask for an adjustment. But right now I'm thinking my body has this "WTFOMGBBQROARRAGE" reaction.
===Update===
I'm relieved to log that I have calmed down since this morning. I'm still a bit dizzy-ish and faintly nausiated but it isn't so bad as earlier today. Not that I was able to do much, mind you. I started a Draenei Mage and ended fishing in Iron Forge because that allows you to go from 0 to 300 in a matter of 2 hours. I could go further, but unless some huge auctions of mine sell, that'll have to wait. And I got Old Ironjaw out of the deal:

===Update===
Well, time to go to bed. I'm a bit worried for how I might feel tomorrow. I hope there's no repeat of today, as that was no fun!
As you can see, the morning is the heaviest. After the 18:00 start of the treatment yesterday with the side-effect of Diclofenac rearing it head, today I'm hitting off the first day of the full schedule. I'm interested to learn how I'll hold up today. I shared my dietplan and timing of it with an aquintance of mine who works as a med-nurse in a hospital and she says that with my medload, I should eat more. The timing is good, but in the case of lunch, I should experiment a little towards having it later because of the weigth of breakfast. If I can't eat more during the setpiece meals, I should take to grazing during the day. There are lots of choices for grazing that are healthy and it doesn't mean that I should stuff my face 24/7. But I never was a great eater and I can sustain myself on a quantity of food that makes Kate Moss jealous. So overeating can in my case become a serious problem. I want to see how I hold up with my schedule first and then see if I need more food at all. And if I do, then I'll have to look into a kind of ultra light snack I can safely add to my diet.
I said yesterday that I only eat once a day and that it is enough for me. I had trouble with breakfast, the two buns were hard to munch down even with spreads I love. It is something I'll have to learn how to do, I guess. I'm thinking about cutting it down to one bun if the 2 keeps giving me trouble. At midday I'll have another meal to content with too!
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I read Darktest2K's blog this morning and that's humbling. Can't begin to imagine what they must be going through. What can you say that doesn't sound corney or insincere? I wish I knew...
===Update===
As I expected, I was less than hungry! Still ate lunch because Diclofenac requires it. I laid down for an hour before lunch because of the effects of Diclofenac and slept a little extra, which accounts for somewhat less pain. Because of the fact that discernable results can only be measured after three weeks I have no real idea whether or not the Diclofenac already has an effect on it too. Fresenius does work, but I have been taking that for a while. Fresenius is a lactating solution that's co-prescribed with Butrans. Butrans shuts your bowels down, leading to constipation. Fresenius puts your bowels too work again.You have to be careful with Fresenius and stick to the schedule for it. When you take too much, you'll be on the throne all day, which can cause dehydration. Take too little or irregularly, it won't work as intended and you'll just be uncomfortable. I have noticed that I feel a lot better when I drink something and it helps with the nausia that Diclofenac causes. Luckily, I have always more of a drinker than an eater, so dehydration for me is not an issue. I easily reach the required amount of fluids in a day!
===Update===
It's interesting to notice how the pain fluctuates. Before I started indexing the measure of pain, I was of a mind that it always was level. That happens because you get used to something that's always there, now matter how cripling it is. Now that I have to record at set intervals how I experience pain (using an arbitrary scale of 1 to 10), I pay more attention. I have been keeping a painlog for over a month now, in case you're wondering. With my medical history and the painlog, we arrived at the current mix of meds we are intending to arrive at a baseline with. I laid down this morning and slept for an hour, which helped lessen the pain a bit, but as the day progresses I become increasingly uncomfortable.
Tentavely I would say that the draconic restructuring of my life, of which this is the true first day, doesn't appear to be as hard as I feared it would be. Being disabled with nothing better to do freed me up to game to my heart's content with royal disregard for the clock. Of course, this is only the first day but I'm fairly certain I'm off to a good start!
===Update===
Actually, lights out will be at midnight. It's the weekend! =)
Hey guys,
This is it then. The search for a practical medical solution to my disability has come to an end because of the fact that all routes to find a remedy has proven to be dead ends. After the worst spill I had 2.5 years ago the verdict is final... I'm done. There's no way a surgeon can wield his scalpel of +5 healing and get me back on my feet again and any kind of physical therapy (2 years without notable progress) has proven to be epic fail too. So, there's nothing left for medical science to do then to make my life at least comfortable to such an extend I can take care of myself, which has proven to be somewhat difficult at times. Maybe even find a job for a few hours a day... but that's still up in the air, because "keeping me comfortable" is a function of the twinevil of trial and error.
Throughout my ordeal of the last two years, I have been kept on a baseline medication that took off the sharp edges of the pain but at the same time did nothing for comfort, and I realise that my erratic behavior because of that has been a point of irritation in the community. I'm not going to apologize for it. Feel what I feel and we can talk on equal footing. As it is, you have no way of knowing or experiencing what I'm feeling. You just don't know. All I can say is that my behavior was in no way intentional, or personal and all I can ask for is you understanding that.
So what does "keeping me comfortable" mean? Basically, the search is now for a mix of meds that allow me to function with relative dignity and grace while ensuring my independence of more intensive care remains a given. To that end, my life has to become a semblance of living without pain, but as long as the proper medication and their dosage hasn't been found it's a matter of experimenting.
I have a persistent burning pain in my left side, between the bladder and liver that radiates to both thighs and up the spine to between the shoulders. I have wobbly legs and a distinct limp and can't bend over, backwards and have a severely limited radius while bending left and right. Lifting stuff hurts like a bitch. I can't walk for a stretch, I can't sit down long and I sure as hell don't have a single night of uninterrupted sleep. Basically, I'm in the outer ring of Hell.
Maybe you guys remember the escalation I experienced on Christmas Eve, that had me on Oxynorm initially. That stuff gave me good vibrations and was a good first line med, but it was ultimately too weak. I was scaled up to Oxycontin, but that gave me anxiety attacks and hallucinations, cold sweat and involuntary twitches, next to sparking some nasty moodswings. I was taken off Oxy and put on Butrans 5Mcg/hour dermapatches. Works very well, but not for the length it is supposed to work, 7 days.
Obviously Butrans is not strong enough to keep me a happy puppy!
Now I have been to the specialist today and we settled on a cocktail of medications with what a baseline can be established. I was told that I should not expect results within the first three weeks and most certainly not marked or landslide improvement in my condition. My current cocktail can be the wrong kind of meds, or the right ones but either too heavy or too light. Since the specialist and I agreed to start conservatively, we expect that in four weeks the dosage on some meds needs to be scaled up. I can also phone in if my new meds fail to have effect et-all.
Seeing as I need to keep a journal of my med-intake and effect so I can better relate any changes in my condition for the evaluation in four weeks time, I'll keeping daily updates in my blog here. I'll also keep reporting on my gaming of course! It's in no way intended to provoke pity for me from you guys, but yeah, I would lie if I would not appreciate support. (Which is a different thing.) So, will this meds cure me? No. They won't. They're purely intended to make my life bearable and keeping me on my feet so I can function in the day to day. I won't get cured, I won't improve and the meds are forever.
I'm starting on the treatments as of today too. To this end I'll have to introduce a timeclock into my life, because the meds demand that. From now on, I'll be going to bed at 23:00 and rising at 07:00. I must also introduce a meal rythm of breakfast, lunch and dinner. I never was a great eater and I usually sustain myself on one meal a day. So, I'll be having 3 light meals, I guess. The meal rythm, I suspect, will be the hardest thing to do. Also, no more gaming all-nighters! Oh well.
Here are my meds:
So, how will my day look on this schedule?
Today I start the treatment on the 18:00 mark. I'm mighty curious to see how I'll feel four weeks from now. And to think that I might even start to make plans for the future makes me a bit giddy! I'll never be able to do sports again (I was a competitive endurance walker), or do the jobs I'm used to do and I will never be able to work for full days anymore, but the thought of being able to do day to day things relatively painfree seems like the holy grail right now.
Thanks for hearing me out! =)
===Update===
18:00, Dinner. Potato/sourkraut mash and a sausage. Taken after: 2 Paracetamol, 1 Diclofenac and 30ML of Fresenius.
===Update===
23:00, lights out. Taken: 2 Paracetamol, 1 amitriptyline.
=Diclofenac gives me nausia, but the leaflet included with them notes that as a general side-effect. If I still feel nausiated after a week's time I must contact my specialist. But I have Pantropazol and Amitriptyline to lessen the effect next to their painkilling intend. Amitriptyline should also help me sleep, and stay asleep for the intended 8 hours. I'm also a bit out of it, also due to the Diclofenac. I tried to play some WoW, but I couldn't focus on it. In stead, I have watched Monster vs Aliens which I hadn't seen before. I enjoyed the animation and the effects, but the story was lost on me, lol!
Thanks for the comments, guys!

You can't keep a good Belf down and so Tifferleigh leads Azeroth in dance. It's a quest in the searing gorge where you have to enlist the aid of a clan-elder by luring his clan into a huge dance party. One of the funnier quests I have done in my try for Loremaster. I have done many more quests since then, and hold Loremaster Eastern Kingdom right now. I'm currently working on Kalimdor, having done Durotar (Explorer, since the quests in Durotar don't count. Did them anyway because I'm in a lowbie-guild and every thing I do contributes right now.), Northern Barrens and working on Azshara.
Yesterday I bought my Flying-Lisence and that means I can now fly over the Old World, which will make exploring the Alliance regions that much easier. It feels like I'm cheating a little. I was amazed that it only cost me 250gold to get it too.
While working on fishing I got the special fish from Orgrimmar and when I tried to get into IF for their special fish and the Fishing Diplomat achievement I died horribly so many times I got 5 minutes rezz delay. And I never made into IF! With Azeroth flying this will be notably easier, as I can take the flightpath tunnels and fly my way into the Forlorn Caverns.
All in all, Tifferleigh is on track with her skills and professions and the time it takes me to complete Kalimdor will see to it that everything will be up to snuff for when she reaches the Outlands. I liked the Eastern Kingdoms quests, though I still feel that the Forsaken questline kinda stops without closure. Do they have a special questline in the Outlands that continues their story? I guess I'll find out in due time!